Soooo! Im in Texas where everything is bigger.
The apartment is nice. Well TOWNHOUSE. Fuck yeah. I dont really feel secure though or maybe Im just paranoid. Someone has the same frequency as one of our garage doors which means it keeps getting left open. So someone could just come in the garage and steal whatever or have a ball at whatever car is in there at the time. I dont want my bike to get stolen!
Im super lonely though. Partially starved for attention. Every week Im gettng more and more people to talk to me at work. I still dont like it there. THe work is decent I dont mind working. But since the hours have been cut back Im being forced to get another job which is creating a ridiculous amount of anxiety.
Oh the anxiety. Lately Ive been feeling a bit...fat? Im fucking hot. I know this. But sometimes I see those stupid skinny bitches and Im like, Im so much better looking than them! But yet I still want to be thin.
I know I need to lose weight mainly for a health reasons. But I want to look better. I want to feel better. But I lack motivation. Severely lack motivation. And Mark isnt helping. His fat ass sits at home playing video games all day and Im all lets go work out! But hes grumbles and complains and I just feel blarg. So I dont go either.
So John, lol. If you are still the only person reading this. Thanks. I miss you too! Thanks for reading my obvious ability to not stay on one topic and change what Im talking about every three seconds.
More to come. Hopefully.
