Le Sigh

So I am feeling pretty accomplished this week. Mark and I decided to get married in September and pay for the wedding our selves. Not that we have much of a choice. My mom is supposed to be saving up money but I know she needs it.

I have 147$ in my account which I am super proud of! Usually I have like 20$ left. I also have 50$ in cash which is equally awesome. Of course I havent gone grocery shopping yet. Le sigh.

Ive been really unhappy today. Mark and I had a small period where we were mad at each other because he is an asshole sometimes. He realizes it and apologizes. Im not an abuse victim so dont get any ideas. And dont say anything about whether I really love him or whether I should be with him. I call him an asshole no matter what he does. Prime example, he gets me raisenets when i really want a snickers.

So this post has no relation to adventure or moving. I just wanted to say I am a sad kitty. And need attention and I want it now.

Im going over moms and julias tomorrow to talk wedding stuff. Yay.

Trouble in Paradise

So another dilemma has arisen. Of course. Our wedding. Sigh. Should we have it this year? Before we go? If/When we come back? Things to consider.

-As a 'Daddy's Girl', I have to have my father walk me down the isle, even though Ive asked my godfather to do the honors if my father cant, I dont think I can do it without my dad. My father is also very sick and getting worse each year.

-It will be difficult/impossible to plan the wedding while in texas because I have over 50 family members in MD. So having it in texas is bad. And planning while in texas is, well, pointless.

-Mark doesnt want to rush it. Whatever that means...he doesnt believe in getting married. This is for me. Maybe he cares now? He keeps avoiding the conversation.

-Money. I dont want anything crazy. I dont even care if it isnt traditional. Mark and I sure dont have much and neither do both of our parents. Plus we plan on moving...

What to do. What to do?

Jury Says.....(lol pun intended)

So its Official Matt and Carol are a couple! Yay. I picked Matt up from the airport today and he informed me. So them being together also means, We're moving to Texas! The plan right now is September. After a few things are settled...

Now the planning begins!
-Find an apartment
-Plan our jobs/transfers
-Save for the trip
-Recruit people to help get to Texas!
-Plan a going away party
-Go through everything I own and get rid of half of it
-Make a budget as to how much we will spend to get down there
-Plan a trip in June to look at apartments
-Car stuff, insurance, tags, licenses
-LOOK HARD FOR FIOS, or awesome internet connection
-Find average price for gas/electric
-And like 100 other things

Right now only a few people know about us moving. Im not going to announce it yet. Its not 100% yet but its 99% which is good enough for me.

It's been a while

So there isn't really any news. No updates. No nothing. If Texas doesn't work out, where to?

Maybe, Maybe Not?

So if you listen to them talk, it's like, "I miss you," "I miss you too," all cutesy and stuff. Like a romance novel. Awwww. Oh and hes going down in a few weeks to visit again. Awwww.

But the dilemma is if we move down there, we move down there for her. And that's a big commitment. I dont care. How about we just move down there because we want to? And that's cool if we happen to be close to her. We won't be completely friendless. But no. Too much commitment there. Meh. Which I still don't understand.

And we're most likely waiting until after Matt gets his monies, which wont be until September which is really dumb considering he was supposed to get it in June/July.

So it's a small update. Sigh.

He hath Returned

And he has. Matt is back from Texas. And he liked it?! The answer is yes, with a side of its too hot but its nice in the shade.

There are also lots of places to eat with all kinds of food! And not alot of chain restaurants but genuine people serving restaurants. And apparently we will be spending every week in the movie theater because they serve you food, like there's an actually table in front of you instead of a row of chairs.

And Austin is kinda like where all the misfits of Texas go. Which is awesome. Lots of gays. Also awesome.

There are trees. A decent amount. Not as much as MD but enough. And everything is open! OPEN!!! Unlike MD where there is a house ten feet from yours. Like Harford county, like waaay out in the country area of MD. OMG. That's what I want. That's where I always wanted to live. I used to tell my mom everytime we drove through harford, that's where I am going to live one day. Open fields and sun. No tall buildings and away from all the stupidity that breeds in our cities.

Im so excited. Now just one little dilemma about moving to get past. And the final decision will be made. Everything is go on our side! Woot.

Gone for Now

So we took Matt to the airport this morning. He will be gone until saturday morning. Im planning that in this time Matt will make the decision on whether or not this relationship will work.

So if we do vote yes on moving. Im choosing the date of Aug 31st-ish. Mainly because our lease will end at the end of the month. And I will kill someone if I dont go to Renn Fest at least once. Which will be on sat the 29th, the second day of opening weekend. Prolly the most crowded too. I DONT CARE. Im going. With my godchildren, their father Rob and Tab, Mark and my mom.

Which means assuming we have already packed everything in the past month. We should load the van up on thurs-fri. Relax on saturday and leave on sunday! So travel will last sunday-monday. And whoever comes down (Mom, candice, charlie, hope and donny) Can fly back up on monday or tuesday. Late monday would prolly be safe. or Tuesday morning.

YAY!

Visions of Trees

One of my biggest concerns about moving to somewhere like Texas was the lack of trees and forests, bodies of water and the ocean. Ive been so disconnected from nature that its really been bringing me down. Mark just doesnt want to go out. And I know I can always go out and do my own thing, I just fail at self motivation sometimes.

But the good news is..............There ARE forests and trees and bodies of water in Texas! I had this terrible sand barren image from when I went to Las Vegas twice. It was terrible everything is so brown and dull and lifeless! There were palm trees but I cant even scale that with a tree, its more of a decoration! (Sorry palm tree >.<) In fact in the area we are considering there is a huge body of water and several parks with acres of trees.

Plus there are plenty of things to do at the camps including, rent boats, ski-dos, swim, etc. There is even a water park. I mean how awesome is that?

On a side note, I found out that a book from a series I love that was supposed to come out in may came out two days ago!! And the author is doing a book signing about 45 minutes away! Woot.

So I think I want to continue following the path I am on. Im happy. Really happy. And found a recent love for brown rice. <3

Who art though Matt?

Matt, who nobody really knows. Everyone knows him as a dick. A guy who does what he wants, when he wants. A guy who will make fun of old people and drive around slow people. A guy who is there to listen and comfort you when you are having the worst day of your life. A guy who can create grand adventures and give you a great time.


He's had such a shitty year. Try injuring a crucial part of your body, have to stay bedridden for months because of pain, only to get better and then get in an accident that injures your closest friend and yourself once again, this time forcing your biggest fear upon you, Surgery. Have part of your spine removed only to be bedridden again, go through therapy again and have to miss out on all the fun things your friends do because you could re injure yourself. THEN you finally find happiness with someone who is 1500 miles away, try to ignore it because of the impossibility. ONLY to find out that your roommate is like Fuck it lets go!

So you think you know me?

I had no intention of staying in MD forever. Granted Ill be back one day most likely. I dont fall for psycho-babble. My last relationship made sure that I would never get upset or regret my decisions because I am so emotionally numb.

Unfortunately, I dont care how this will effect you. Its my life. My adventure. And it isnt fair that people are trying to hold me back. We havent even decided on where we're going yet. And yes Im going to miss everyone but Im not going to be gone forever.

I dont care if my reasons for leaving are dumb. I dont care if people get mad at me because in the end nobody really knows me. Ill give the biggest credit to my mom, who is being very encouraging. She is excited for me, a great adventure for me.

Mark, who may not know me like you do, knows more of my secrets and quirks than anyone I have ever loved. And he wants whatever will make me happy. He likes the idea of moving, not to texas though lol. But it isnt permanent!

Rob/Tab and his kids I am going to miss only second to my family. Rob has been the best friend I could ask for. Granted lifestyles have kept us apart lately. I hope one day Rob can join me on my grand adventure across the states. I think it is something that he would really enjoy.

Matt smells like an orgy of Gay Men

And here is why!

We went to the mall today for various reasons. One of them to find Matt a new Cologne. And after spraying about 50 different scents on to all the little paper samples. And most of them ended up following us back to the car. And Matt honestly smells like an orgy of gay men, he said so himself.

But anyways, I told Marks little brother there was a chance of us moving down. Each day it seems like the likelihood of us doing so increases. Maybe Ill start taking it more seriously? Money wise? Sigh, thats gonna be a hard thing to do.

Its almost spring time and I can start landscaping. That should help a tremendous amount. I should give Mr.Herb a call! Now Im excited!

Good News

There is a Pei Wei in Austin. That's fantastic. Pei Wei has like the best noodle bowls ever. And their Crab Rangoon is AMAZING.

There is also like 3 Best Buys. So easy to get transferred. Hopefully.

The apartments down there (well at least the pictures), look really neat. Like fancy hotels with pools and lights.

So this is a short random post. That is all.

My Best Friend

I told my best friend Rob today. I have talked to him in a while and I know its partially my fault for not calling his house. But I finally got a hold of him at work today! I was so excited. We continued our conversation later that night and I told him my plans. Im really going to miss him. I know he's sad that Im going somewhere but I am certain the next few months will be better because of it!

I am really hoping that once he gets everything in place with his life, mainly his job, he will be able to come and visit me more often. Tab too! That would be really cool. And eventually I hope Rob and Tab are able to join us on our adventures and travels.

I honestly just want everyone to be happy. And Rob sincerely deserves happiness. He has put out so much into the world. When his threefold comes back to him I hope he will continue sharing and making other people happy.

And apparently there aren't too many cowboys near Austin which makes me sad. What is desert without cowboys? Thats like ice cream with no bowl! (Analogy has nothing to do with cowboys and deserts, I just want ice cream).

It Starts as Rain and Ends in a Monsoon

Matt is going down to visit her during spring break. The 16th-21st! Im kinda excited. Hopefully all this magick in the air will settle and they will find physical happiness from this as well as the emotional. Matt is giving me her address tomorrow so i can more closely pinpoint where I should be looking to transfer. We still need to find out how much it is to break our lease.

Steve is supposed to be moving around here for a new job he might be getting. Maybe he will take over our apartment. Prolly not.

So ive been thinking about all the friends im going to miss by moving away. There are alot. Im hoping that they will come visit sometime during the 2 years we will be there. I say 2 years as an estimate. There arent enough trees and forests and rivers to keep me there forever.

A moving van will cost 1,300$ plus gas (15 mpg x 1500 miles) at 24 hours drive time, plus 1 day to pack, 1 day to unpack, and 1 night to stop at a hotel....looking at $1,580 (not including hotel) and about 3 days moving/packing. It's going to be fun times.

Purging of the Artifacts is no easy task

So I should probably get rid of 60% of the useless items I own. I am a keeper of useless pointless items that have little sentimental value but I feel they should remain in my possession for eternity. I do this with clothes also. Clothes that have not fit me in 5 years. Im going to purge these items! Ill do it, seriously....

And buy new items to ease the pain of my loss. Like new pillows and bed sheets. I should buy more organizational items such as cabinets and containers. I need a better vacuum too. Maybe I should keep and eye out at work for a new awesome vacuum. I need a trash can too, mine was destroyed by Bob...

And even though I say Ill do this, but never do. Ill set up an altar and begin meditating more. I need to calm my mind and learn to concentrate more.

"You'll have to talk to Mexicans..."

This is the plan. Matt goes down to visit during spring break(She is a teacher!) to visit, make sure things are the way they seem and Mark and I will visit(with Matt) during the summer vacation. Mark and I will also do alittle apartment hunting while down there to get an idea of where we want to move in and how close we decide to move to her.

Did you know that we pay $962 for our 2 bedroom, 2 bath apartment? (It's in a nice neighborhood and that's after Matt's student discount). But it's eh. Did you know the average 2 bedroom where we're looking is $700-800? That's awesome. Then again their jobs also pay less. Apparently Im looking at a pay cut when I transfer to another Best Buy. But in other news, Matt might be getting a job with Geek Squad! Then he can start paying for me when we go out to eat!

And I'm learning spanish! Figured I might get more money at a job. Yeah. Armando at work is helping me too! I was all "Como se dice Excuse me?" Permiso. Like permission! Im a genius I swear. And I knew Video Juegos. But now I know "Video Systema" (pronounced cee-stem-a). I just gotta get Rosetta Stone working play My Spanish Coach on my psp/ds. I wanna start speaking to my customers in my poor broken spanish but I dont want them to start conversing normally to me and me look like a complete idiot.

Mark reminded, "But you''ll have to talk to Mexicans"............

This is the story of a Guy and a Girl

This it where it starts, a little bit of back history. My Fiance Mark and his best friend, our roommate Matt, went to High School together where they met a teacher who happened to like anime. So she started an anime club. Now Matt and Mark had already been to Otakon before but this teacher WORKED there. Thus began their working at Otakon. This teacher soon had a boyfriend. Eventually the teacher moves down to Austin, Texas. So fast forward about 4 years, Mark and I meet. 3 years later, she is single. And apparently since she had always been unavailable Matt had never once thought of the idea of them as a couple. I thought of them making an interesting couple but dismissed the idea do to her being unavailable and him not showing more than a friend interest. So apparently theyve been talking ALOT. So Im sooo excited!

So basically long distance relationships suck and we all kinda want to get out of Maryland.

Ergo, we move. Anywhere. We are planning a trip to visit this teacher hopefully during spring break. Hopefully Matt and her will hit it off and we'll move to Austin, Texas! If not, We are moving somewhere, yay!

If you didnt know from the Start, this is for you.

So this is the Blog I told myself I would make to document my travels. Hopefully this is the beginning of a grand Adventure! First a Letter to everyone:

Hey Friends,
Most likely I didn't tell you anything about my plans to move. Sorry, kinda. It was sudden and well planned. I didnt want to tell anyone but as you all know I can't keep my mouth shut about exciting adventures. But I'm doing my best. I just chose not to tell everyone. Basically I want to get away and start new. There isn't a reason why I didn't tell certain people. You're not allowed to be mad at me and if you are it's unfortunately your loss. But none the less I love you all! And I'm going to monitor the progress of this spontaneous uprootment. Yep, that's it.
<3 Cristel