Maybe, Maybe Not?

So if you listen to them talk, it's like, "I miss you," "I miss you too," all cutesy and stuff. Like a romance novel. Awwww. Oh and hes going down in a few weeks to visit again. Awwww.

But the dilemma is if we move down there, we move down there for her. And that's a big commitment. I dont care. How about we just move down there because we want to? And that's cool if we happen to be close to her. We won't be completely friendless. But no. Too much commitment there. Meh. Which I still don't understand.

And we're most likely waiting until after Matt gets his monies, which wont be until September which is really dumb considering he was supposed to get it in June/July.

So it's a small update. Sigh.

He hath Returned

And he has. Matt is back from Texas. And he liked it?! The answer is yes, with a side of its too hot but its nice in the shade.

There are also lots of places to eat with all kinds of food! And not alot of chain restaurants but genuine people serving restaurants. And apparently we will be spending every week in the movie theater because they serve you food, like there's an actually table in front of you instead of a row of chairs.

And Austin is kinda like where all the misfits of Texas go. Which is awesome. Lots of gays. Also awesome.

There are trees. A decent amount. Not as much as MD but enough. And everything is open! OPEN!!! Unlike MD where there is a house ten feet from yours. Like Harford county, like waaay out in the country area of MD. OMG. That's what I want. That's where I always wanted to live. I used to tell my mom everytime we drove through harford, that's where I am going to live one day. Open fields and sun. No tall buildings and away from all the stupidity that breeds in our cities.

Im so excited. Now just one little dilemma about moving to get past. And the final decision will be made. Everything is go on our side! Woot.

Gone for Now

So we took Matt to the airport this morning. He will be gone until saturday morning. Im planning that in this time Matt will make the decision on whether or not this relationship will work.

So if we do vote yes on moving. Im choosing the date of Aug 31st-ish. Mainly because our lease will end at the end of the month. And I will kill someone if I dont go to Renn Fest at least once. Which will be on sat the 29th, the second day of opening weekend. Prolly the most crowded too. I DONT CARE. Im going. With my godchildren, their father Rob and Tab, Mark and my mom.

Which means assuming we have already packed everything in the past month. We should load the van up on thurs-fri. Relax on saturday and leave on sunday! So travel will last sunday-monday. And whoever comes down (Mom, candice, charlie, hope and donny) Can fly back up on monday or tuesday. Late monday would prolly be safe. or Tuesday morning.

YAY!

Visions of Trees

One of my biggest concerns about moving to somewhere like Texas was the lack of trees and forests, bodies of water and the ocean. Ive been so disconnected from nature that its really been bringing me down. Mark just doesnt want to go out. And I know I can always go out and do my own thing, I just fail at self motivation sometimes.

But the good news is..............There ARE forests and trees and bodies of water in Texas! I had this terrible sand barren image from when I went to Las Vegas twice. It was terrible everything is so brown and dull and lifeless! There were palm trees but I cant even scale that with a tree, its more of a decoration! (Sorry palm tree >.<) In fact in the area we are considering there is a huge body of water and several parks with acres of trees.

Plus there are plenty of things to do at the camps including, rent boats, ski-dos, swim, etc. There is even a water park. I mean how awesome is that?

On a side note, I found out that a book from a series I love that was supposed to come out in may came out two days ago!! And the author is doing a book signing about 45 minutes away! Woot.

So I think I want to continue following the path I am on. Im happy. Really happy. And found a recent love for brown rice. <3

Who art though Matt?

Matt, who nobody really knows. Everyone knows him as a dick. A guy who does what he wants, when he wants. A guy who will make fun of old people and drive around slow people. A guy who is there to listen and comfort you when you are having the worst day of your life. A guy who can create grand adventures and give you a great time.


He's had such a shitty year. Try injuring a crucial part of your body, have to stay bedridden for months because of pain, only to get better and then get in an accident that injures your closest friend and yourself once again, this time forcing your biggest fear upon you, Surgery. Have part of your spine removed only to be bedridden again, go through therapy again and have to miss out on all the fun things your friends do because you could re injure yourself. THEN you finally find happiness with someone who is 1500 miles away, try to ignore it because of the impossibility. ONLY to find out that your roommate is like Fuck it lets go!

So you think you know me?

I had no intention of staying in MD forever. Granted Ill be back one day most likely. I dont fall for psycho-babble. My last relationship made sure that I would never get upset or regret my decisions because I am so emotionally numb.

Unfortunately, I dont care how this will effect you. Its my life. My adventure. And it isnt fair that people are trying to hold me back. We havent even decided on where we're going yet. And yes Im going to miss everyone but Im not going to be gone forever.

I dont care if my reasons for leaving are dumb. I dont care if people get mad at me because in the end nobody really knows me. Ill give the biggest credit to my mom, who is being very encouraging. She is excited for me, a great adventure for me.

Mark, who may not know me like you do, knows more of my secrets and quirks than anyone I have ever loved. And he wants whatever will make me happy. He likes the idea of moving, not to texas though lol. But it isnt permanent!

Rob/Tab and his kids I am going to miss only second to my family. Rob has been the best friend I could ask for. Granted lifestyles have kept us apart lately. I hope one day Rob can join me on my grand adventure across the states. I think it is something that he would really enjoy.

Matt smells like an orgy of Gay Men

And here is why!

We went to the mall today for various reasons. One of them to find Matt a new Cologne. And after spraying about 50 different scents on to all the little paper samples. And most of them ended up following us back to the car. And Matt honestly smells like an orgy of gay men, he said so himself.

But anyways, I told Marks little brother there was a chance of us moving down. Each day it seems like the likelihood of us doing so increases. Maybe Ill start taking it more seriously? Money wise? Sigh, thats gonna be a hard thing to do.

Its almost spring time and I can start landscaping. That should help a tremendous amount. I should give Mr.Herb a call! Now Im excited!

Good News

There is a Pei Wei in Austin. That's fantastic. Pei Wei has like the best noodle bowls ever. And their Crab Rangoon is AMAZING.

There is also like 3 Best Buys. So easy to get transferred. Hopefully.

The apartments down there (well at least the pictures), look really neat. Like fancy hotels with pools and lights.

So this is a short random post. That is all.