So Tequila is my new friend. I realized that I like the feeling when you're drunk and you close your eyes and everything starts spinning REALLY fast.
Well, usually when I do this I fall over. Lol. Oh well, someone usually catches me! Usually...I want the record to state that I have yet to throw up from drinking and I have yet to have a hangover. :P Basically because I am awesome. Recently I went back to MD, had a nice little emotional breakdown about losing my wallet, then finding it...And then I cried at least once each of the next 2 days. I want to come home. I got to meet my nephew Tommy and he is really the most adorable kid you'll ever meet. My mom wasn't lying. And he doesn't cry. That automatically makes him the best baby ever! I was able to spend lots of time with him and Mom. But he's growing up and Im not there and Im missing everything. The other day Candice texted me that he rolled over...
Speaking of Candice. I'm starting to realize that I am jealous of her. She has the life I want right now. I dont want to work, I want to live with my mom, she's buying a house with her husband, she has a baby, shes going to school(kinda sort of) and things seem right in her life. And I wish her the best of luck! But I cant help to be envious that Im struggling so much and I try so hard and I feel like I keep getting the bad hands of life. Not to complain. Things could be worse. I could be addicted to something worst than food. I could be obese. I could be jobless. Homeless. In jail. Etc. Im keeping my chin up but sometimes I feel like giving up.
I still hate retail. But Im so unmotivated to get another job. I may have an ace up my sleeve. Fingers crossed. We will find out in a month I hope. More income may be in my future.
Mark has lost 28lbs(hes at 280lbs) so far! That bastard. And you can tell! His double chin is shrinking and his chest is getting smaller! Hes still not down to whatever he was when we first met. I unfortunately have been sitting at 167.2lbs for the past 4 weeks. Like I said Ive been lazy. Amanda and I have started going to Yoga classes on Thursday evenings. They are super awesome. I feel really good afterwards.
Mark and I had still been having terrible fights. Sigh. But I think we reached a happy median. Lets see how long it lasts this time. I think what I am starting to realize is that I argue just to argue. I get mad at myself afterwards. But we have been argument free for 4 days now! But I am beginning to stress out because I was gone for 4 days and my workload at home has quadrupled.
What is Love. This is my new favorite song for the time being. Sang by "Never Shout Never", which I am falling in love with. I found out that he will be singing in San Antonio in July with a few other bands. So Im gonna go! And guess who else will be there? All American Rejects. FUCK YEAH I love those guys! Im so excited and tickets are only $30!
So that is it. It wasnt a terribly long update. I miss everyone in MD. Keep your fingers crossed for me! <3
Well, one congrats im sure you'll lose some more weight so i wouldn't stress all too much about it. As far as being homesick id just say don't dwell on it too much, the decision honestly comes down to you what you wish to do with yourself and bettering yourself in the long run. Still it was fun while you visited and cute pics btw you should dress up more idk why you don't lolz
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