Do I stay or do I go?
TX: The Good, the Bad but hopeful and unhappy
-Away from my friends and family.
-Nice huge not expensive houses.
-Yearly car fees. Cost of plane tickets.
-Nice demographic. Cheaper.
-Beautiful. Disgustinly hot.
-No snow. Huge body of water.
-Carol and Matt. No Mom, Dad, Charlie, Candice, Tommy, Dougie, Julia, Aunt Barbi, -Uncle Jay, Grant, Rob, Tab, Hope and Donny, Denise, Christian, Chelsea, Star and Bryan, Kristen and Chris, Nikki and Steve, Noc and Katie, John, Allen, Bob, Zach and Amanda.
-Too many people to list.
-No one comes to visit me (Mom and Hope are visiting soon).
-Nicer shopping centers. Horseback riding.
-Amanda, Brian, Ryan, CJ, Sal, Chaz.
MD: The Bad and The Ugly but home
-"Shitty people, shitty expensive houses" -Mark.
-Yes the people are assholes.
-Yes the houses are either old and expensive or new and expensive.
-There are state taxes.
-The demographic sucks.
-Surrounded by tons of friends.
-Never-ending support, love and closeness of friends and family.
-Having my mom there when I give birth.
-Having my family over for dinner and holidays, dinner at moms.
-Being there if one of my parents goes to the hospital.
-SNOW. Skiing. Ocean city, Virginia Beach, Roundtop.
Results regardless:
I will become a massage therapist/physical therapist assistant. I will either quit or work less hours for best buy. I will get a job paying $40k+ a year that I love and perofrm happily. I will have a baby in the near future (1-2 years). I will buy a house.
If:
I remain in TX, I currently feel I will be eternally depressed and lost without my Mom and Dad. There will always be some part of me that regrets living here. Ill miss the lives all of the friends and family that I spent my entire life knowing and growing with. But I like, possibly love it here. Its fantastic but it doesnt feel like home. The housing is really nice. The living conditions are amazing. The crime is minimal.
I move back to MD, Ill be happy and surrounded by my friends and family. Ill have my Mom to fall back on, who knows me better than anyone in the world. Ill pay more for less house. But Ill be able to raise my baby with the comfort and support of my family. I will have to work harder to make more money to afford to make myself happy.
No Im not pregnant. Seriously, do you think if I were pregnant my title would be what it is? Id go all out. Itd be something like HOLY SHIT or THE DAY HAS FINALLY COME or POSITIVE FOR REAL. Or something else rediculous and outrageous and most likely in capital letters.
Well any opinions or thoughts or ideas? Our lease is up in January. Matt will most likely move in with Carol. And Mark and I will either get an apartment together in TX or move back to MD.
WHAT DO I DO? WHAT WILL MAKE AND KEEP ME HAPPY?
Seriously its been 5 years since Ive had to make a decision this hard. And its tearing me apart.
I feel you. Been here in Atlanta now for a lil over a year now and it hurts being away from family. Regardless of the hurt and missing fam', this move has been good in that Yvonne (my wife) and I are progressing as a married couple, I'm in school for something I'm passionate about and it's a new start for us both. Depressed as I may get, she's there to pick me up again. 'sides, there's always Facebook, lol
ReplyDeleteFinancially, it probably does make more sense to stay here in Texas, but the most important thing that it comes down to is what you feel is right. As good as any advice we give may be, it's still not something we can decide for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's especially hard being here because you've not been here very long. The longer you are here, the easier it will be, and that comes from experience.
And you do have a support network here, even if it's smaller.
I miss you guys a lot.
ReplyDeleteI haven't mentioned this before because it sounds selfish to me but I would be crazy happy if you moved back - and I know I'm not alone when I say that!